July 11, 2011
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Ch-Ch-Changes
So. I have about a month left before I head on up to college. (Grace Baptist College in Gaylord, MI for those nosy ones.
) It’s got me thinking. About 2 things mainly.See, at first I was worried about losing my friends. I mean, how many people actually stay in close contact with their high school friends during/after college. Not too many. And this had me worried, I started thinking of the people that I would feel lost without, my best friends, the ones I used to talk to every day like…
And that’s when I got even more worried. See, I never have had many friends. I’m not much t look at, and can get pretty annoying, but I accepted that long ago as my personality: if people didn’t like it, their loss. But I never had too much trouble finding people to hang out with. I can make people laugh, so I usually had a good amount of “friends” at school, camp, etc. But none of them were ever really close to me. In my life, I’ve had four best friends. One is a habitual liar and assumes I’m too dumb to know the truth, and so has been taken off the list. Two moved away a long time ago. The fourth I don’t really talk to much anymore: they don’t really realize they were my only real friend. I guess I always knew I didn’t have any real friends, I just kept denying it while I was around the fake ones. But I figure I best face it before college starts, so I can have the chance to start fresh. I have no friends. I am that guy that everyone likes to talk to cuz he’ll make you laugh, but that’s as far as my relationship goes with 98% of the people I know. The personality I embraced so long ago has left me friendless. I’m not depressed or sulking, just stating facts.
Which brings me to the 2nd thing I’ve been thinking about. Nobody at that college knows me. I’ve chatted to a few of the staff members some, but they can barely call me an acquaintance. So this would be the perfect chance for me to start over, create a new me. Be less of a jerk (by that I mean making rude comments by which everybody knows I’m joking, but they may still hurt feelings), be less obnoxious, be quieter. Instead of being that guy that you laugh at, but is outta sight, outta mind; be that guy that makes you chuckle, but you want to get to know better.
I know people say to “be yourself,” and “never change,” but those people probably don’t need to change. I know I do.
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Have a great week!
Comments (7)
I know what you mean about friends…I’ve never really had friend either… it has never came naturally. But, good luck to you and here’s to a new beginning.
Oh cool. I see some college adventure blogs in the horizon. Those can be pretty wild and crazy. Enjoy this new upcoming chapter in your life,
College was THE PERFECT opportunity to start over for me. I hated high school and the type of person I was then (basically, an antisocial hermit).
You’ll make new friends in college and I know that for me, my college friends were a lot better than my HS friends. I do still hang out with one high school friend once in a while (she’s coming with me to get my tattoo tomorrow haha) but beyond that, I had never gotten close enough with anyone to make our connections last long.
College is amazing, and I wish you luck!!
Have a fun summer!
Oh, and I want to see more of your writing!
I don’t know if you would really fit me into a “friend” category, but I have always tried to be a supportive person in your life. I am happy to hear you are advancing your life by going to college. I know you will make some friends there. I made friends at college that I have contact with from time to time. I will be here for you if you ever need “anything”. Well, almost anything. I will help whenever I can. Please let me know if you ever need anything. You are one of my success students.
When you get to college, have a blast and make sure you pass all those tests. lol
Go ahead and change. I’ve changed many times in my life when I landed in new circumstances. It isn’t a matter of being yourself….it is a chance to drop old roles and rules and other’s expectations of who we are. It is kind of like a caterpillar become a butterfly.
I just had my 21st bday party and most of the people there were my high school friends. Sure, there were less than there were before, but like…I’m still such good friends with the majority of them
. It just means that both parties have to put the effort in 
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As you come to know Christ more and more as the lover of your soul and your best friend, as the only one who is totally reliable and in whom there is no shadow of turning, your other relationships will fall into place. As Christians God has chosen us and set His love on us and we are accepted in the Beloved (Eph. 1:6) and Christ is not ashamed of us and calls us brothers (Heb. 2:11).
Numbers 6:24-26.