May 21, 2011
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Have You Ever Had One of Those Lives?
Have you ever had one of those days? When nothing seems to go quite right for you? When things you expected to happen, don’t; and the things you didn’t expect to happen, do? When by lunch, you already wish you could start over? When you actually don’t mind going to bed early because that means it gets the day over sooner? When it finally comes time for the day to end, you lay in bed, on the verge of either tears or insanity, wondering why, and hoping the next day isn’t the same?
Have you ever had one of those weeks? When nothing seems to go quite right for you? When nothing seems to work in your favor? When by Wednesday, you’re begging the weekend to jump forward a few days? When the weekend finally comes, it’s not the big relief it’s promised to be? When on Sunday night, you go to sleep with that sinking feeling that the next week will just be more of the same?
Have you ever had one of those months? When nothing seems to go quite right for you? When you suddenly realize the month is half over, and you wonder where time has gone? When you know the whole month will only go down in your history as another big, gaping hole of a waste of time? When the last days finally arrive, and you realize another month has gone, and you pray the next month won’t be the same?
Have you ever had one of those years? When nothing seems to go quite right for you? When spring arrives and you feel like last spring was just yesterday? When one by one, your plans seem to fall, or take place, but not nearly the way you’d imagined? When you suddenly remember that one person,who was once a huge part of your life, but you haven’t talked to them in months? When summer comes and goes, and you barely accomplished anything you wanted to? When you find winter is half over, and you beg the universe to give you more time? When it’s New Years Eve, and you realize you haven’t changed one bit, and all those resolutions are just dreams never to be fulfilled? When you know 10 years from now, you won’t be able to look back and say, “That was a good year?” When the clock hit 12:01, and you plead for the new year to not be the same?
Have you ever had one of those lives? When nothing seems to go quite right for you?
Comments (5)
That was depressing. I have had days, maybe weeks like that but then I pick myself up and say enough. I really believe we have choices in how we deal with challenges and pain etc… I usually make the wrong choice, but eventually I do decide I can turn things around, and I do.
Well there is always the rapture to take care of all that negativity
@momofjenmatt - Sorry. My thoughts lately have been a bit depressing. Most of the time, I’m not half as depressed as my post looks like. But sometimes things happen that you just can’t change; that you can’t turn around, no matter how hard you try. (Don’t get me wrong; that doesn’t mean I’ll stop trying!)
@The_Eyes_Of_A_Painter - Well, that turned out to be a let down. Guess I’ll have to go back to looking constantly, since no one knows when it’ll be.
You forgot to finish the last paragraph.
Here’s a start: “Where everything you do, no matter which direction you take, always seems to be wrong, somehow a mistake? Each day you pray for the end to come, sometimes threatening to bring it about yourself, and then the next morning wonder why you didn’t as the cycle starts all over again? Where God, if there is one up there above, seems to be out to destroy you around every corner, or at the very least not to care?”
I know the feeling of being in that state of mind…it’s taken me literally years to begin to see a brighter future.
Funny coincidence, though: the darkest of those years, a person I trust with my all told me that they believed that year would be the best year of my life to date…shortly before metaphorically ripping out my heart. (As such, I tend to not be very trusting anymore.)
@Galbsadi - Yeah, life sucks sometimes. Most times.